Her back is up against a wall

Literally

Standing
Breathing

Trying to be in the moment

How will she provide for her family?
How will she keep herself and her daughter safe and healthy?

She wants to run
She wants to stand and fight
And she might be struggling w suicidal thoughts, which are only thoughts, she knows
And she knows she has much to live for

She goes outside, smokes, connects w the birds and trees and bees, pa es on the patio and comes back indoors to write.

Strategic analysis of situation:
Not good, maybe not bad just change, try not to judge
She’s  getting much better at this, dbt mindfulness therapy and meditation practice are helping,

Killing bad habits helped.. she’s come through so much!
She is strong, she is relatively young, and she’s desperate w a young daughter starting school, travel wishes to see family, no job yet no renter yet all prospects for income look promising
She’s afraid to let go
She values security and comfort and what is hers, what she has earned

And she hears a voice saying ‘get out and save yourself from those Illuminati babksters tbat have robbed us
And she hears Freddie Mercury singing ‘I want to break free’

And a huge butterfly floats by

And why is she knocking things over? Or.. more useful question is how can she stop knocking things over? How can she get back into a state of high vibration and flow?

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