And then she considered her options
sell? And be left with what? Her family and she needs the resources to care for them properly.
This is most important
She considered going to work for the government
Maybe this is the way?
She’s not prepared to move, not prepared to give up fighting to keep her house. But can she after what she’s been through? Can she maintain security and safety and well being for herself? She has to find a way. She has to find a good paying job.
She likes knowing that she’s master of her own domain, even though it makes her feel terrible she’s been unable to maintain it to her own exacting and beautiful standards. She hasn’t entertained because she feels ashamed of the state of her house.
What’s wrong with keeping it and fixing it up?
Takes resources she doesn’t currently possess,
She believes, perhaps insanely, that her quality of life will improve if she lets go of the house and moves on.
She secretly wished to leave the country but sees that’s not a viable option as she has a young child in school, 9 years at least.
She desires financial freedom. And she sees that she’s not really had that yet.
Moreover, she’s just plain scared of the world outside her own place, funky as it may be.
She’s a highly intuitive highly sensitive mother of a highly intuitive and sensitive child and a very emotionally intelligent dog and she’s afraid to let go of her house, their sanctuary and home base.
An old friend counseled her long ago to protect herself from the elements
She still believes somehow if she could just get a good enough paying job she can stand to go to every day that she could keep the house and keep things as they are, she loves this so much.
Another wise old man counseled to let go. More than one person she knows has counseled this actually. In fact almost everyone.
Shefeels so sad
She fears falling into depression as she knows what that entails.
She fears falling into addiction as she knows where that leads too.
She’s been clean for many years and can’t afford to risk that. Nor can she afford to risk her sanity and what self love self worth she’s managed to build. These are more important and will help her move forward. She fears stagnation and Longs for retreat into familiar territory at the same time.
She’s not sleeping
She’s smoking tobacco again and wants to stop again. She’s done so well she needs to know she can do well again.
She wishes she saw a way forward that felt good and comfortable.
She needs to see a way forward that feels good and comfortable.
She wishes she had been more careful in her youth, though she’s still young
This is most important
She considered going to work for the government
Maybe this is the way?
She’s not prepared to move, not prepared to give up fighting to keep her house. But can she after what she’s been through? Can she maintain security and safety and well being for herself? She has to find a way. She has to find a good paying job.
She likes knowing that she’s master of her own domain, even though it makes her feel terrible she’s been unable to maintain it to her own exacting and beautiful standards. She hasn’t entertained because she feels ashamed of the state of her house.
What’s wrong with keeping it and fixing it up?
Takes resources she doesn’t currently possess,
She believes, perhaps insanely, that her quality of life will improve if she lets go of the house and moves on.
She secretly wished to leave the country but sees that’s not a viable option as she has a young child in school, 9 years at least.
She desires financial freedom. And she sees that she’s not really had that yet.
Moreover, she’s just plain scared of the world outside her own place, funky as it may be.
She’s a highly intuitive highly sensitive mother of a highly intuitive and sensitive child and a very emotionally intelligent dog and she’s afraid to let go of her house, their sanctuary and home base.
An old friend counseled her long ago to protect herself from the elements
She still believes somehow if she could just get a good enough paying job she can stand to go to every day that she could keep the house and keep things as they are, she loves this so much.
Another wise old man counseled to let go. More than one person she knows has counseled this actually. In fact almost everyone.
Shefeels so sad
She fears falling into depression as she knows what that entails.
She fears falling into addiction as she knows where that leads too.
She’s been clean for many years and can’t afford to risk that. Nor can she afford to risk her sanity and what self love self worth she’s managed to build. These are more important and will help her move forward. She fears stagnation and Longs for retreat into familiar territory at the same time.
She’s not sleeping
She’s smoking tobacco again and wants to stop again. She’s done so well she needs to know she can do well again.
She wishes she saw a way forward that felt good and comfortable.
She needs to see a way forward that feels good and comfortable.
She wishes she had been more careful in her youth, though she’s still young
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