Matilda

What would I write about? I’d hope to write whatever it was in an accessible, funny, engaging manner With wit and rhythm and form impeccable I’d hope to be successful and to help others and myself in the process

she wept and wept Let the tears flow It’s good to have a friend to hug you sometimes too

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so many harms done Cracked teeth from stress post concussion syndrome from falling at home in a fight or flight reaction Thoughts of suicide ( but one cannot do this when one has children) Dizziness and fainting speaks from low blood pressure Panic attacks Paranoia PTSD Alienation Depression What are we supposed to do now?

She wonders what is wrong with her so she can begin to fix it

hung on the hook by her sister ereshkigel Today she spoke her truth to her mother - not out of rage or revenge or hate or even anger, simply truth And almost immediately began to bleed She allows this flow and feels so very very tired And hope for release from the nightmares of the recent past

Many of those she knows who currently fighting foreclosure are on pensions, and planning to go bankrupt after their casesis resolves. Is this an acceptable solution for you? If you are still working and supporting a family , you may not be able to ‘keep the fight’ and still feed your family. Consider this.alsp consider whether or not you can keep working and still keep the fight. Weigh which is most important to you. It’s difficult to imagine leaving one’s home, more difficult still once you’ve seen the corruption and lies involved in the foreclosure process. Make a careful analysis of your own situation and choose the path that is right for you and your situation, make your own plan or you could be part of someone else’s Bankruptcy may be a temporary solution but can you live with the consequences? What are the consequences? Are they worse than what you’re already facing or might it make things better for you and your family? Would you be hurting yourself by continuing to figh...

Be wary of online forums and such, which seem to promise everything but rarely deliver more than confusion. Foolproof solutions but rarely deliver. Many of the ideas are simply not true, and it’s possible to waste a lot of time and resources finding that out. Occasionally, one hears whispers of this stuff working, but be very aware of your own vulnerabilities and capabilities before getting involved. And have a plan b and a plan c.. be case what will you do if it doesn’t work for you. If you do choose to interact with online resources, you may find amazing souls doing amazing things from their hearts, because they care. And you may create friendships that endure beyond foreclosureville. I hope mine do. One dear to me has this to say to me: “If you move yourself out of feeling the need to protect yourself, and looking at the forclosure as a bad thing, you may free yourself. I know this seems strange, but just like with relationships, if you try to own something by force, it end...

Anti anxiety meds and anti depressants can help, they can also make you feel strange. You need your faculties and your wits about you, be as sober and awake as possible. Also, you have to be able to rest and get some sleep. Do whatever you have to do to function and stay away from anything that could be destabilizing.

For all the harm she’s done to herself In reaction to her childhood And now she must find it within herself to forgive herself and live herself Completely

The Saturn Opposition (~44 years) Note: These interpretations are taken from  astro.com ,  cafeastrology.com  and  planetaryvisions.net  and  astrolibrary.org . This is just a compilation for the benefit of those in their 40s experiencing some of these influences. Saturn opposite Saturn Transit This is one of those times when you reap the harvest of past actions. If you have planted good crops in the past then the yield will be rewarding. However, if you have planted on rocky ground, then the crops may fail. Either way you find yourself having to put in the hard work to bring in the crop. If you are reaping rewards, there are extra responsibilities. If you are experiencing difficulties from past actions, you have to work hard to put things to right. You may sometimes feel that others are blocking your path. You would be wise to shoulder the responsibilities knowing that this is paving the way for a more stable future. Saturn Opposition Natal Sat...

A new José Stevens Article THE SOURCES OF REAL POWER October 15, 2018   By José Stevens Join Our Email List:  Stay up to date with forecasts, moon updates, events, offers and José's recent articles. Perhaps it is time to once again look at the topic of power because we are living in a time of massive change and it so happens that the theme of power is rearing its head again. This will be especially true in the next couple of weeks but in a way it is also the theme for the next several decades and that will affect the majority of people alive today. Power of course can be defined a number of ways both conventionally and from a more spiritual point of view. Conventionally power is usually associated with power over people, events, organizations, budgets, technology and so on. One who wields this kind of power has what appears to others to be influence and control over the physical environment. This kind of power is very glamorous for many human beings ...

When discussing case strategy and info, phone scrambled and then call dropped despite neither of us being in a remote area. We both have good service It happened again Static, interference on the line when discussing strategy with someone else.  He said ‘it’s probably the nsa’ but don’t they have better things to do? Why don’t they focus on monitoring the corrupt officials and banksters? Instead of terrorizing honest families fighting for their homes and lives ?

Why it's Crucial for Women to Heal the Mother Wound by Bethany Webster What many people do not realize is that the core issue at the center of women’s empowerment is the Mother Wound TM . Difficulty and challenges between mothers and daughters are rampant and widespread but not openly spoken about. The taboo about speaking about the pain of the Mother Wound TM  is what keeps it in place and keeps it hidden in shadow, festering and out of view. What exactly is the Mother Wound TM ? The Mother Wound TM  is the pain of being a woman passed down through generations of women in patriarchal cultures. And it includes the dysfunctional coping mechanisms that are used to process that pain. The Mother Wound TM  includes the pain of:  Comparison: not feeling good enough Shame: consistent background sense that there is something wrong with you Attenuation: Feeling you must rema...