And now I realize I feel grounded here at home

I don’t want to leave
Why couldn’t I just have got a job with the state
I have to keep us safe o feel unsafe when I’m not grounddd
Oh please god help me

We love our house,
It’s been a place of great healing for me and a lovely place for my family to grow
I’m so sad that I failed to keep it
Failed failed failed
Vaguely suicidal and so very frightened